I am hanging in limbo, dreading that the consequences of my actions will catch up with me. I am not going to confess here about my mistakes, but I needed to say something about why I can't seem to put any other kind of post together. I have never been a really patient person. When there is a problem I like to get it taken care of as quickly as possible, while keeping the ball in my court.
The basic problem I am facing here is the speed of rumor, while hoping it just dies out for lack of interest. That leaves me here just sitting and waiting. The dull pain of dread sitting in the bottom of my stomach seems to be here to stay. In my mind I know that since there is nothing I can I do I should just let it go and get on with my life. My mind doesn't seem to be able to do that just yet. I think I'll let myself obsess for three more days, then convince myself I'm out of the proverbial woods.